Don't know why..

I don't know why I feel the way I feel, don't know why I can't be what I wanna be, don't know why I can't say what I wanna say, I'm just confused I guess, or maybe am afraid of the repercussions to come If I do what I'm supposed to do, if I say what I need to say. Fear sucks, it kicks you in the nuts and leaves you to be devoured by the wolves.

Thank goodness I can count on her to lighten up my day, although she may sometimes leave me feeling worse than I initially felt, at least I still get to smile when I'm with her.

I feel like I'm torn up inside and broken outside, just like a collage of misinterpretations and the angst of the events that have and will have come in the near future. This is it I'm calling him up, I'm telling him everything, hope he doesn't beat me with a stick.

Next time I'll be posting something positive, don't wanna be sucked into the void of depression.