To the lost, and to the searching

There is no sure thing in this world of ours, except for the concept of "change". So there's no need to over analyze, if it works out, then good, if it doesn't, then move on.
Because being stagnant is the worst feeling of all, the feeling of emptiness, the feeling of not being needed, is almost comparable to the concept of limbo.

If it works out, it works out, if it doesn't life still moves on and so should you.
Don't give in to the voices in your head saying that you are worthless, a loser, a bum, a good for nothing parasite and so-on. Don't give in to self-doubt, 'cause like this guy once said "whether you say that you are right or you are wrong, you are always right".
I believe this statement to be true, and so it's time to swallow my pride and move on to the next chapter of my life, no room left for self-doubt, or pity.

Rejection...ouch

Not too long ago we've been dating, I thought everything was just fine, but it turns out that she just....just wants to be friends...T_T
I don't know, well actually I do, I came on a bit too strong, well at least that's my side of the story, my story, me being a he, makes it HISTORY, hahaha<-laughter
I only wish to give off a genuine laugh right now, but but but, huh..ow crap.
I know now that I feel numb, not really sad not really happy, just typing what I think I'll feel when the emotional hangover kicks-in in the morning.

Should I still try, or should I accept the fact that she doesn't see anything romantic in me? Ow ow ow ow ow cow bowow bow, cry crow bow wow. She said "I'm sorry but I only view you as a friend" with a tearful voice, I asked is there no hope at all?
she said I don't know, but I just want to be clear with you, I only view you as a friend, that's why I've been avoiding you, 'cause I don't want to hurt you in the future. I asked, hurt me in what way, she said, I don't know, I then asked her if she's ok with me still trying to be more than just friends, and she said it's up to you.

Well it boils down to the facts of what are we really? She's a girl, and I'm a guy who has feelings for her, and what do guys do to girls that they have feelings for?
We court them, naturally, and since she said that it's up to me if I still wanna go at it, I'll take that as an opportunity, we're still good friends, nothing more for now, only time will tell.

We've only been dating for more or less than three months, so I think it's too early for her to say it's over. I'll follow my advice, and not be a hypocrite, "persevere".

FUCK YEAH: Graduation!!!

Tomorrow's my graduation ceremony, I'm so excited I can't hold it anymore, so anxious so rambunctious, so so so so much more than words can say, with the use of imagery though, just think that I'm so happy that I want to punch some one's face in with my straight, then kick him in the groin, give him a knee to the face, then just kick him on the ground till he ceases to breathe, I guess that's how happy I am right now ohhh... FUCK...CK...cK...ck...

Plus her smile is another reason to be happy, hehehe, I just can't get enough of her these days, crap, huh...hh, hehehe.

What's next for me? Film school and an apprenticeship under a known director, how cool is that?! And the real kicker to this predicament is that it's all for free!!!!!!!XD

Thanks Brother!!!!!

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